In Yellowknife, i have created a Life!
So yes... it would be SO easy to come back here. To my life, and my job.. It’s what i WANT to do.
But... i don’t believe that’s what i’m SUPPOSED to or NEED to do. I’d tell you how i know this, but.. you’d just think i’m crazy. So i think that bit of info will be just for my friends who also happen to talk to trees and Auroras and sing to rivers, like i do. Ok.. ‘nuff said.. and now you think i’m nuts anyway.
Suffice it to say... I have it on ‘good authority’ (in MY world) that i’m not meant to come back to Yellowknife in the fall. I have other quests to follow, challenges at hand and fears to conquer. My kids aren’t going to like hearing this, because they think it’s dangerous and i’m too ‘old’ to go to where i need to go. They think i should go to Europe. They think it’s safer there, and they may very well be right.
And sure.. i’d LOVE to go to Europe! It’s a life-long dream! To see the Louvre and other incredible ‘Europe-y’ places? It would be the SAFE thing to do. I do WANT to go there.. and i WILL go there. But... it’s not where i NEED to go right now, to find what i’m looking for at this time.
The place i need to go to is Thailand. I need to swallow my incredibly intense fear (literally.. i cry every time i think of doing this thing), and travel to Thailand and Southeastern Asia and Indonesia, alone. Not that i WANT to go alone.. Hey.. if anyone wants a travel partner to Chiang Mai Thailand.. i’m your babe! Save me from having to face this fear! Or not. I still have to go!
The newest plan of the hour is to live in Chiang Mai for about 3 months (Jan to March), and travel to close-by countries now and then during that time... Cambodia, Taiwan, Vietnam, Malaysia, Philippines, Bali (just because it’s Bali).. and oh my.. India and Nepal? And of course, REALLY experience Thailand. I plan to learn how to speak at least a bit of Thai (or at least try my best).
I’m not happy to just visit a place. I need to LIVE there. My thought is for at least a month... three is best. Actually, starting in Chiang Mai IS my ‘safe’ route. It’s the place that all nomads seem to congregate when they need to settle down for a while and relax. So.. sounds like a good place to start a nomad’s life to me! The other countries i’ll just be scouting for future living possibilities.
And Thailand is the ‘Land of Smiles’.. a place where people will bend over backwards to help a complete stranger! Considering my experience tonight with slipping on ice in the middle of the street, not being able to get up... and a car just driving around me... and a guy going back into his house... I need to see this Thai personality for myself. Are they really like people say they are?
Anyway, where i go after the 3 months is up, is of course, in the air. Maybe head down to Australia for their fall (and see my niece!).. then through some south pacific islands to Easter Island to Chili (to re-learn my Spanish and see penguins?).. and then...?
OR.. head north to Japan and stay there for a month or two. I SO want to live in Japan.. it’s been 40 years since i’ve been in Japan (the first country i fell in love with, when i was a kid)... before heading back over the Pacific before it gets too hot.
OR.. head west and into Europe... or.. whatever, i don’t know. WAY too much info for right now. Aaaa!
Or heck.. maybe none of this will happen the way i’m thinking it will! Chaos does reign after all! And honestly, if my body does something like become diabetic, then i’ll be effectively grounded permanently. Well.. to Canada at least.
I only know that next January, i at least plan to be stepping off a plane and into a new, more tropical life.. like it or not. Honestly, i don’t know if i can handle the humid heat. If you know me, you know i do not ‘do’ heat. I thought the same about Arctic cold (being a wimpy Vancouver girl), but.. if you dress properly, extreme dry cold is no problem at all! But.. bring in humid heat, and there’s nothing on earth that will stop you from being a miserable cretin, barring air conditioning. Oh geez.. HOW am i going to survive the heat?
Well anyway... that’s the story. I’m still in the ‘denial’ stage though. (ie: NO!.. i want to come back to Yellowknife! That’s comfortable! That’s easy!) It may take a bit more time and a few more tears before i get past this stage and accept the path i’m meant to be on this coming year.
Doesn’t mean i can’t come back to the Arctic the following year if i’m still in one piece...! ;-)